I know myself well, too well at times. Well enough anyway to know what I'm doing now. Pulling into myself, into my safe lil cocoon, surrounded by the high walls I've built to keep the world out. But even as I distance, I have conflicting internal dialogue. This *was* my coping mechanism, for most of my life. So much has changed and I'm happier than I have been in a long time, so maybe I should change my coping mechanisms too? Hard to just decide to do so. Particularly knowing how well my cocoon has worked for me in the past.
I feel a little lost. Alone. Overwhelmed. Weak.
Natalie, the thing about that cocoon is that all you have to do is push that button up there on the right - do you see it? it's the red one. Push that, and a window will appear so that you will be able to see out of the cocoon. I know that seems scary, but you need to do it, otherwise you won't be able to see that you aren't really alone at all. There are people who love and cherish you waiting to help you. You might not be ready to go to them just now, maybe you need some quiet time to sort through things on your own. But you must not forget that they - that we - ARE here. We didn't leave you. We won't leave you because we love you, and you are important to us.
ReplyDeleteWell Natalie I know how you are feeling, My Domme is a way for awhile and I sure need some direction in my life.
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