Naughty Irish Imp

Naughty Irish Imp

Thursday, January 17, 2013

He's *Always* Here


So much has been happening in my personal life in the last two months or so. It was hectic before then, but my God how it's picked up. Ughhh. I'm so ready for a break. 'Normalcy' sounds ideal.....and unlikely......but I think I'd settle for just a little down time these days. 

A lot of the things I've been dealing with in my 'real life' are not things I've discussed at depth here on my blog, though a couple things are referenced in related punishments from Nov-present. So I wont go into an inordinate amount of details regarding the things I've been struggling with lately......but there are several things happening at once, some work related, some family issues, etc. And many of these things are difficult emotionally to face. 

I'll be blunt: The last 60 days of my life has been hell. 

My 4 year old son always provides perspective and a bright spot to my days. As do my little, loyal wiener dogs. I have a couple of amazing friends and some great family as well who have been awesome at helping where they can. But this post, is kind of a "thank you" to the one man who is *always* there and never even had to be in the first place. 

Professor and I's relationship would be so much less stressful if we could reside in our D/s roles and world forever.....but we can't and we don't. We both have very 'real' lives, responsibilities, careers, families. At times I worry that I might stress him too much, that I might get far more from our relationship than he does. I've always been a highly guarded girl....I don't trust easy and I don't let people 'in'.....but Professor won his way 'in.' He doesn't simply spank me for our enjoyment......he is also a HUGE support for me in my 'real life.' 

When I need to talk......he listens. When I need career advice......he will give it. When I have parenting questions......he answers them. When I just need to hear his voice......he always answers. When I just want nothing more than a hug and to hide away from the world for a while in his arms......he's more than happy to pull me in close and hold me. 

The man is just phenomenal. A year ago I sought a disciplinarian......nothing more, nothing less. What I found, surprises me even now, a year later. This man has become one of my best friends in the world. His approval means more to me than I could tell you. Disappointing him breaks my heart. He is the closest thing to a father I've ever had. My behavioral compass and mentor. 

When I think about how challenging these last 60 days have been.......I can't imagine how I would have endured it all without his constant, unwavering support. He's simply *always* there. He always makes time for me.....always. He always checks on me.....always. I haven't been the easiest to deal with lately either; more than once my stress has ran over into influencing my attitude and mouth when I've been speaking to him. I've cursed....I've lacked respect.....a couple of "no"s.....once or twice I was downright defiant (health issue).....but he hasn't wavered. He doesn't get intimidated by my abrasive attitude.....he's stands his ground and is just *always* there for me. And I love that. 

I've come to depend on him so much more than I ever dreamed I would ever depend on any other human being. When I look back at our last year together.........there were times that I really needed him........and he was *always* there.......even when I hadn't expressed that need to him, hadn't articulated my thoughts or feelings.......he simply knew and has always been there for me. I can't think of even one instance where I've truly needed this man and he hasn't been right there beside me. Adding the facts that we don't live together, both have separate families, careers, etc.........only makes it more amazing that he has still, some how, *always* been here for me. He has become my anchor in this crazy world and I'll never be able to repay him for all he does for me. 

Thanks Dad.....for *always* being here for me.  :)  You're amazing and I'm incredibly lucky to be your little girl. 


  1. Sooo cute Imp.

    I'll warn you now he may not always be able to be there for you......might get busy with a better behaved brat. You are kinda naughty and defiant.....the man might look for a girl that requires less maintenance.

    Just sayin'. Its still a cute post though.....and speaks for how well your Prof does his job. Adorable.


  2. Ah yes of course.....if my life is not stressful enough, I can *always* count on darling lil Cora to agitate me more with her cutesy threats of stealing my Dom.

    I'm not concerned.....funny thing about this relationship we have built is that we tell each other everything. So thanks for the 'warning'.....I find did you phrase it?......Adorable.

  3. Aw don't be a mean lil imp. Besides maybe I'm not threatening to steal him....maybe I already have. :)

  4. Cora, dear, don't be catty. Natalie is bright enough to notice whether he is around or not, you know.

    Natalie Lynn, there is no need to be sarcastic. You have already won, dear girl.

  5. Cora....

    #1: *IF* he sought a girl who was 'lower maintenance'......he'd stay far away from your drama.

    #2: Part of me would love to see him beat your ass because you deserve it.

    #3: I've seen you taunt other girls and/or their relationships, grow up.

    #4: I believe nothing you say to me (your private emails).....and I *know* that he would be open and honest with me about this, as he is in everything else we do.

  6. Oh, look, Natalie - I thought that you were the one with green eyes, but it does appear to me that Cora's eyes are turning that color.