Anxious

07/09/2014

I am full of anxiety and nerves tonight. Tomorrow is my birthday, and I am going to be spending a good portion of it with my Daddy. :)  I am beyond ecstatic that I'll be spending the day with him and getting a proper birthday spanking.......

But that sinking feeling has settled into the pit of my stomach and I am a walking ball of nervous energy, because along with my 'good girl' birthday spanking, I will be getting a 'bad girl' punishment spanking for lapsing on a couple of Daddy's hard line rules.

The night before a punishment I am always uneasy to some degree, but Daddy intentionally being quiet and mind fucking me with silence only intensifies the anxiousness.

Off to bed.......though sleep is a stretch :)