OMG! Ughhh. I swear to God my Professor is psychic. How does he do this? How does he know when I am not exactly behaving? I just don't get it! And I am either surrounded by his spies or the man is incredibly intuitive. The last two days or so I have been a bit edgy....testing limits just because I can and not really paying much attention to behaving. Then today I get an IM from Professor saying he is traveling again......which always seems to make me feel brave and fearless.
Then I got a call.......surprise, surprise......guess who? I clarified that my Yahoo IM status message that said "blah blah blah Im tuning you out, so don't waste your breath" was NOT directed at him.....lol. I may think it at times but I am not ignorant enough to say it or put it in text where he could see it. So after the quick, "Hi" and "How are you" pleasantries he says, "Do you have something you want to tell me?" HOW DOES HE DO THAT??? It caught me by surprise and I think I even stuttered, trying to think of something to say.....which of course only told him that he was on the right track. I pretended to not hear his question and tried to change the subject to which he said, "I asked you a question." So I said, "Why do you ask Sir?" I know he hates repeating himself and he isn't fond of my answering questions with questions either but I couldn't help it.
"Stop beating around the bush and answer me Natalie Lynn." I sighed, and sulked in my SUV.....he had me and I knew it. "I don't have anything I want to tell you Sir.....but I do have something that I do not want to tell you." I filled him in on my latest offense......speeding......84mph......and unfortunately for me, Professor and I have discussed my speeding many times before, so this will be a repeat offense.......which sucks. I swear his voice lowered an octave when he replied, "You are in trouble." Pretty simple and straight forward response huh? Suppose the lecture really isn't needed at this point with this particular offense; I could likely recite it verbatim for him.
Kind of mad at myself for it too.......I haven't been speeding for months now.......then Poof, one minute of not paying attention and Bam.....speeding again. Oh and let's not forget to mention that this speeding incident that happened yesterday, took place just 24hrs after I was involved in a car accident. Yeah, Professor honed in on that as well. I attempted to blame my whiplash induced migraine.......which was pretty stupid; I am not allowed to make excuses for my behavior. Damn damn damn.
So we are tentatively scheduling a session next week. On one hand I am excited because I haven't seen my Professor in what feels like forever.......and I love being with him......and I will finally know what my MCAT scores are since I told him that he is opening this envelope....lol. But, now on the other hand, I was already going to be in trouble for my use of the 'F' word slipping back into my daily routine, often enough that my 4 year old son has picked it up which is sooooo not okay. But now, I am also going to be punished for speeding........and my last speeding punishment wasn't exactly a session I wanted a repeat performance of. **Sighs** But from now until next week.........I have to figure this out.......HOW DOES HE DO THAT??? How does he know before I even say something that I have done something wrong? Is it in my tone of voice? Does he employ herds of spies in New England? Perhaps NH, VT & MA state police have him on speed dial to inform of my traffic tickets? Is he psychic? Does he call a psychic? I just dont get it!!!!
When it comes to SPEEDING it matters not how he comes to know your errors ect , just be very thankful that he does know: and that you have someone who cares enough to try and eradicate this foolish conduct. Human flesh and metal car componants do NOT mix very well in truth, and hopefully you will NEVER have to find out.So when your professor is next due to attend to your deserving bare bottom i hope he does so with a very masterful hand that leavs you wishing to NEVER engage in speeding again for obvious reasons that i do not have to elaborate on further. I was pleased to read from your other comment that my previous comments were not found boring, i beleave however from what i have read i will soon find out when they are. I look forward to hearing how your mentor deals with your speeding error, and hope you have to stand instead of sitdown to type.
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I am not at all looking forward to him addressing this speeding lapse......and I already wish I had never done it. Hmmm.....I wonder if that will eliminate the need for a punishment spanking? Yeah....probably not. Damn it.
ReplyDeleteIn answer to your question with you feeling regret at having broken speed limits, possibly thinking the fact of regret will delay any corrective punishment or dismiss it completely; my responce is this dear lady. A few posts back you clearly stated that some of your friends received get out of jail cards, and to that i replied that action actualy serves no purpose and assists neither the mentor or miscreant . If one learns that if NO guide lines are broken then they are completely free of any correction they are making good progress, however they should understand that breaking any guidelines will only lead to them being soundly disciplined, and again if the second scenario is the case they are still learning how to conduct themselves correctly for the benifit of all concerned, So i hope your bottom receives a mother of all spankings to eradicate further conduct of this nature. That is how i myself perceive the situation others may see it entirely differently and are certainly entitled to their oppinions.
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I know better.......I usually am sorry or regret what I've done wrong before I actually have to face Professor for it.......and that fact alone has not ever gotten me out of a spanking. Honestly, though it sucks, the spanking isn't even what I am most nervous about. It is the look on his face when he is displeased with me that I hate. Hmmm.....maybe I could ask to be blindfolded? :)
ReplyDeleteeeeek! Good luck girl, it sounds like you're going to be in for it!
ReplyDeleteI was talking to a car dealer today about what equipment I might want on the new car I'm hoping to buy. He told me that there is a device that can be installed that lets you (or someone else) find out where your car is, how fast it is being driven, etc., etc. It will send a text message to your phone.
ReplyDeleteI have to tell you that I am amazed that you haven't lost your license yet - I'm not wishing that on you, but I'm not sure you would still have one with all your past infractions if you lived here in California. Come to think of it, if you lived here, I probably would be wishing it on you because I would not want to share the road with you!
I do hope that your MCAT results are everything you hope for and more.
And i fully understand your comments concerning the look on his face when he feels disapointed with your conduct,you obviously wishing to please rather than displease him .Many true submissives can and do feel this way when dissapointing a person they cherish or hold dear. And in truth i do not know if your a true submissive having only spoken breifly while commenting on your very interesting blog. However no blind fold should be even thought about let alone introduced when you are facing your mentor. You should be made to look fully into his eyes and see both his total self assurdness and his equal dissapointment.And then dear lady be prepard to face what ever he decides should appropriatly be administered to the benifit of you both.
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I absolutely prefer to please him rather than displease him. He means a lot to me. As for the question of am I submissive......with one particular man, yes I am.....the rest of the world, not a chance. :)
ReplyDeleteAnd the blindfold comment was a bit tongue in cheek.....I know better. I'm certain Professor knows how intense and effective his non-verbal communication is.....he doesn't even tolerate me looking away from him when he is speaking to me, there is no way he would let me avoid his eyes entirely.
Susan.....OMG you just had to write about this technology on the blog rather than send me a private message? Lol. Professor reads this thing.....and I'd rather not have my car texting him.....that would so suck. Oh and my license......if I had actually accepted the fines or pleaded guilty, I would not have a license I'm sure. The courts here typically give up and dismiss traffic offenses if they don't involve personal injury and the plaintiff wants to argue the ticket. I know, not great to keep using these loopholes.....and I am getting a lot better than I was but still clearly need to pay more attention and not get so complacent about my driving when I know how easy it is for me to go right back to driving like an idiot. *sighs* And I promise I will let you know my MCAT scores after Professor opens them and lets me know on Friday :)
ReplyDeleteNatalie Lynne, what makes you think I don't want the Professor to know about the technology? Since you keep relapsing - and I know breaking habits is hard - maybe if you knew that you had absolutely no chance of keeping him in the dark for even 5 minutes that would be just the extra bit that you need to keep you on the straight and narrow. I don't want to hear about you getting punished. I was very glad he didn't get on you about the U turn a while ago because that didn't seem like a big deal to me. But I don't want you turning yourself or anyone else into road pizza!
ReplyDeleteOh, the Professor reads your blog? Sir, the name of the gadget is - the truth is, I've forgotten, but I'll be talking to the salesman this week and can find out. He did tell me that it isn't very expensive, but I don't know what he thinks IS expensive.
I do look forward to hearing about your MCAT results.
Yes breaking these habits seems to be tougher than Id first anticipated. I am too impatient for my own good. I figured when you mentioned it that you did so hoping Professor would learn of this new technology. I tell him everything anyway, but just the threat that my own damn car would tattle on me as well.....ughhhh.....perhaps the threat alone will help to remind me to drive like I have some sense when Im in an impatient mood. I was also glad he ignored the U-turn thing....he is demanding but very reasonable.
ReplyDeleteI am all sorts of freaked out about my MCAT scores.....can not wait til Friday.....but I kind of have to wait......another chance to practice patience....lol.