Thursday, August 16, 2012
So Close, Yet So Far
3 freaking weeks since my last spanking and now just days before my Professor returns from his vacation and this was the *last* thing I wanted to see in my rear view mirror this evening!!! I swear to God there is no serious crime in Vermont or New Hampshire.....the police are always more than happy to become preoccupied with minor traffic offenses. Ughh.
Professor has been gone 2 1/2 weeks now and will be home on Monday......I certainly hope a 3 week vacation returns him in a loving, forgiving mood. :)
I *almost* behaved completely in his absence. I made it through week #1 without incident. Week #2 I had a late assignment issue and a hard-to-explain-but-I-was-sooo-wrong incident at work. Now here we are in week #3 and hooray, I've somehow managed to accumulate more trouble than I think I want. It really was my intent to behave perfectly so when he came home, I wouldn't be in trouble....so I have tried very hard to be good and avoided a few certain catastrophes by disengaging in stressful situations......so I *almost* behaved like an angel.
I wonder if Disciplinarians believe that 'almost' or 'close' only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades?!?! :)
Worse still, I think I may have dwarfed the actual offense that initiated this traffic stop with my freaking mouth. I swear to God, the second I rolled down my window, my filter broke. That little "shut up NOW Natalie" button.....it is totally defective.....if it is operable, its news to me because I did everything *but* shut my mouth. Why can't I learn to regret in advance......then as soon as a stupid idea came to my mind, I'd toss it aside instead of doing, or in this case saying, something completely mind-numbingly ignorant that is going to get me into trouble. Ughhh. Sure, it is amusing in the moment....get a little rush of adrenaline defying authority......but it literally takes like less than an hour for that to wear off before I really realize what it is I just got myself into. I think I need a muzzle!